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# So angry I am numb
- URL: https://there-might-be-cupcakes-podcast.ghost.io/so-angry-i-am-numb/
- Published: 2023-09-02T18:29:08.000Z
- Updated: 2025-02-03T15:54:02.000Z
- Description: Shooting at Chapel Hill
- Author: Carla Pettigrew
- Tags: Newsletter, #Migrated-1738597973835, #Import 2025-02-03 15:53

I attended NC State for undergrad. My friends attended Chapel Hill just down the road. My understanding is that a graduate student killed a faculty member. This was the school newspaper’s response: the editors asked for screenshots of students’ sent and received text messages during the lockdown.

I could write in depth about the important and trusting relationship between a grad student and their professors, how at Boston University classes were sometimes held in their homes, how we drank together, how they genuinely celebrated us. About how very safe I felt in grad school. Academia is a sanctuary.

I could write about this being my home, Chapel Hill being between Charlotte and NCSU, with a Pettigrew Hall on campus, named for my relative.

But this speaks for itself.

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